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WAS IT THE BEST DAY OR THE WORST DAY? 2

Heyyyyyy. I am back :). So Where was I? Alright. I remember. So I was sitting silently when all of a sudden I saw my classmate walking into the class. She came and sat beside me. We talked about everything we could. Our friends,family,likes,dislikes,every dumb shit and still didn't got bored. There was also a girl from my childhood in that class. We took same cab to school and were together since 1st standard. So it was me my classmate my van mate and her friend. All of our class was called to ground then. So we 4 sat together talking about our previous classes when all of a sudden tears rolled down my eyes and I stated whining like a child chanting continuously I don't like this class. I want my old class back". Just then my classmate and van mate comforted me and asked to stop crying and be happy with whatever I have. but I was reluctant that I don't want this class. My classmate then came to me and told me that its just a mere class how will I tackle bigger lif...

WAS IT THE BEST DAY OR THE WORST DAY?!

                            It has been a long time since I posted anything. I was lying patiently on my bed when suddenly something bothered me........... even I don't know what it was. I sat on my bed stared on the ceiling and remembered that I own a blog and can write anything I want to without any restrictions or permissions. It is something which is mine (not mine alone :3). Today in my chemistry class I was listening to my teacher and taking down notes when all of a sudden my best friend who was sitting next to me mummered into my ear "I still remember the first time we met". First day of 9th standard.  It was a regular Tuesday,  for everybody except for me. I am an emotional person tbh. I was sitting silently by the window waiting for one of my classmates from the previous class( you see our classes get shuffled in 9th stand...

Nobody's perfect.

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Everybody's not perfect. Why talk about everybody? Nobody is perfect. We've got different definitions of perfections. Someone may define it based on looks or someone might define it on health or intelligence and not what. But the main idea behind defining something as 'goals' is because we're keen on achieving it. And so simply nobody's perfect 'cuz the goals keep on changing and taking higher and higher levels. We think of reaching the clouds but , the clouds are temporary and transient. So now we think of the sky. But the sky is practically not there so we never reach there. We never reach a specific goal which is almost imaginary. Because of the fact that our 'goals' keep on expanding. I'm not saying that its not good to dream but it would be better if our goals are more realistic and practical as far as our approach towards different situations in life is considered. As far as perfection is considered, when we have set goals...

The Year [Part-4]

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Note: This is Part 4 of the series of articles "The Year". For  Part-1 Click Here . For  Part-2 Click Here.  And For Part-3 Click Here More than half of the year was over and when I see myself 9 months ago, I see a totally different person. I was changed, I knew this; no one ever told me but I liked the changes in me, I became less insecure, more confident, and grew more love for some people. I was happy with the change in me. Nine months were over and now only three months were left to be faced, I made my mind for the worst case, and didn’t expect anything good ahead. Yet I tried everything to make the rest months to be easy and happy. But life proved me wrong again. October went in silence, it brought some difficulties but they seemed to be very small compared to the rest that I have faced in the previous few months. I tried to keep the bond between three friends, as I thought they were the only ones who were always there for me; I was trying to grow...

The Year [Part-3]

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Note: This is Part 3 of the series of articles "The Year". For Part-1 Click Here . And For Part-2 Click Here. From now onwards nothing was going right. The starting of this year was pretty decent, yet I was not aware of the future. First, three months went super easy. Next three months came with depression and now I was sure that nothing will be alright ahead. I was ready to face the problems. There was a hustle in my house because of packaging; the whole family was trying to pack everything before the date so that it doesn’t get mixed up later. Everyone was upset yet they were packing as they had no other choice. I was the most upset one in my family. Mixed feelings were playing with my mind. I was angry, upset, depressed all at the same time, and my mind was not giving me commands. I was not able to share my feeling with anyone. I was upset about my grandpa and was angry because the girl I loved, rejected me for no reason, and because of leaving the town I...

The Year [Part-2]

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Note : This is Part-2 of the series of article "The Year". To read Part-1 Click Here. My life was moving smoothly, everything was on the track. I had a feeling that everything ahead will be same as now. Previous three months flew away so fast and now I was in new class, with new students, new friends. I was coming up with my studies; I was having a busy schedule. It was the month of April and it will be the most beautiful month of this year for me, as I fell in love in that month. I fell for my friend. She was my good friend and we had nothing more than a small friendship. But suddenly I grew an immense love for her. Before that, she was just a common girl for me, but something attracted me towards her. I don’t know what it was. Maybe it was her smile or her eyes. I was in love with her imperfections. I grew the love for her, but she didn’t know that, maybe because I never let her know, I kept it cool. I was afraid to lose her. Feeling of love is very beaut...

The Year [Part-1]

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Note : This article is a part of the whole series of articles "The Year".  This is Part one, hope you love it. The year 2016; begin with smiles and happy faces all around. I had many friends, my family was with me and everything was sorted. The month of January went swiftly and nothing much happened, except new year parties, parties with friends, birthday parties, outings, family gatherings. And the starting of this year seemed to be very delightful for me. Then exams came, and the pressure from parents increased. And it made every student, walk out from outings. For a month some students started concentrating on studies, yet most of the students were carefree. Results arrived and some were happy with that, others were still carefree. My year was moving smoothly, I’d a best friend, and school life was perfect. I had my friends with me, everyone was making out with each other but I was still single, yet happy about that. And my family life wa...

The True Friendship.

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I love to make new friends. And this is the reason that I have so many friends. But I have only a few true friends on which I can trust blindly. Once I was asked a question by my best friend, and that question for a while made me think out loud. She asked me to suppose a situation, where I have to choose between her and the girl I love, whom I would choose. My answer was definitely her. And I told her so. But she was confused by the answer I gave to her. She was searching the reason for which I chose her instead of my love. She asked me the reason and I had no answer to her, I didn’t think for a second before answering her question and it was her name instead of the girl I love in my mouth.  That conversation ended there. But she made me thinking the reason for which I chose her. Later, that day when I was thinking about it, I got my answer. She means a lot to me. Our friendship is not so old rather it is very young, but I think it is the mutual understanding of both of us ...

The U-Turn.

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Indian Marriages are fun but it is very complex too just like an onion, you peel and peel the layers to get the best, similarly in Indian marriages there are tonnes of ceremonies that makes Indian marriages very fun as well as stressful. And when the wedding season arrives it gets very energetic around families and relatives having an upcoming marriage. This is not a story of mine with any marriage Incident, but it’s related to it a little. So my mother’s birthday comes in the month of wedding season. And once it was claimed that on my mother’s birthday enormous number of couples were getting married in my hometown, breaking the record of highest marriages in one day. We were deciding a place to celebrate my mother’s birthday, and we all came to a conclusion that we will celebrate in a nearby hotel, the hotel was well known for its cuisine and class. And we decided not going anywhere far as there was news for high traffic jam alerts on roads. My father was pretty sure that ...

Losing Someone Special.

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Friendship is a very cute and happiest thing. Having true friends is one of the best things in life. But, losing someone that you thought was your best friend is one of the dreadful things in your life. I faced this situation recently and I can say that there is nothing worse feeling than this. A girl is in my life that I use to love and adore, she was my best friend. I loved to talk to her and share everything that I felt. We both use to text each other pretty enough. She was one of the people who helped me to scratch away my sadness and loneliness when I shifted my home to a new place. I loved her with the purest heart and I couldn’t see her upset or down. I use to cherish the moments that we use to spend together. Her presence would make me smile, and just by talking to her my day uses to become happy and shiny. When I left my hometown, I went pretty upset and depressed; I was losing friends, but still I had three best friends that I knew will never leave me even if I am i...

MOVING ON.

Moving-on. Ever felt the need to move on from a person or a thing? It is definitely not easy to move on from a someone or something but at the same time, it is not impossible. Never take the decision to move on unless and until you are fully consumed and are now fed up of the pain you are going through. According to me, you should convince yourself enough to make your inner self ready for the transformation. Also, never take the decision when you are consumed in jealousy. Revenge is definitely not a part of the plan. Don't ever go for alternatives. Don't ever think that you'll be able to drive a person-specific from your mind and heart if you settle for someone else. Old memories will resurface. You'll have more expectations or you'll simply expect your past happiness. You'll start thinking more about your past soulmate and regret will fill your heart. And you will end up breaking the heart of your new partner too. It will be a rare circumstance if yo...

Was It?

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Was It her pretty Smile, That she gives to everyone, Or was it her endearing laugh, That stays forever in my mind. Was It her hair, that she flicks, Which makes me love her again. Or was it her beautiful eyes,  In which I lose myself sometimes. Was It her endless talks, Which I can hear for life. Or was it her delicate hands, Which I want to hold for life. Was It her repentant tears, Which I hate the most in my life. Or was it her esoteric secrets, That I want to know all of them. Whatever It was, She made me fall for her again and again. I share true love for her, but I don't know where she is. Dedicated to my special one... Hope she finds it. Poem Written By Akshat Atray. #LivingHerSmile.

Childhood Mischief.

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Most of my childhood memories are about my mischief. I was the naughty kid in my society, who loves to prank. And I was the most loved kid too. But still, there were few people who were annoyed by the notorious activities of mine. Today I was helping my mum with some festive work and she told me how I use to be when I was seven. She also told me how I use to irritate an uncle in our neighbour just for fun. I started to recollect all the memories and that made me happy. I started thinking about my neighbour, I never had any intention to irritate him but I use to have fun watching him annoyed, angry and yelling. I was seven that time, it was Diwali break and I was free to make plans to do some pranks with my favourite neighbour. I use to wake up early and run downstairs to meet my friends and we use to play till our mums use to come to pick us up. And on the festival’s eve, we were the most energetic and excited ones. I use to roam around the whole society burning crackers a...

HER.

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Everybody has felt that first touch of love when we hold our mother's tender finger. Most of us live happily under her shadow of care. She nurtures us. She makes us who we are. She is the most selfless person present. She can spend days without eating but she can't stand we crying from hunger even for a single second. But. Not everyone is lucky enough to get the luxury of her food. Her touch. Her love. Her care. They have no one to share their thoughts with. No mentor. No, guide on the rubble path. No one to hold their hands and make them walk. No one to hold their cycles from behind. No one to wake up for them all night so that they can sleep calmly. No one to calm them during PMS. No one to sleep with them.  But those who have her. Those who are born with silver spoons in their mouths have no value for that diamond hearted coal. The coal she made herself to make us shine. Nobody cares for her. She kills herself to make us live. No one takes time to admire her beautif...

My Favourite One.

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When we are in crisis, nobody helps; except family. They are the one, who take us out from a vulnerable abyss. I have the best family in the world; even I have the best relatives too. Nowadays I don’t spend my much time with my family or relatives, but sometimes, I still recollect some of the memories of me and my relatives. I still remember those days, when I use to play with my favourite aunt. She used to make me happy a lot. She uses to become like a kid with me and accompany me every time. I liked to spend time with her; sometimes she also helped in my studies and homework. But this all things happened when I was a kid. I still want to go back to those days. Today also I share same behaviour with her. My aunt, she is fun loving and ever young. Whenever I meet her now also, we do a lot of talking and we laugh a lot. A few days ago, I was studying and my father’s phone rang, he talked to someone on the phone and I was able to hear the tension in his voice while talking. Som...

A Note From A Friend.

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Today I was cleaning up my cupboard after a while. And whenever I do so, I find many interesting things that were lost or had some connection with my beautiful past. So when I was cleaning it today, I found my school bag, which I use to carry to my previous school. I checked all the compartments of the bag, and I found my wallet and a piece of paper in it. I was seeing that bag right after the day I left my previous school. I had many memories of my previous school and I still miss my friends from the school. The piece of paper that I found in my bag had something written in it, so to check what was written inside I eagerly turned the folds and it was a note from my friend. And it said, “Take care pal! We will meet soon...” After reading that note I was flooded with emotions and the last day in my previous school came into my eyes. The last day in my previous school was a very emotional day. Many of my friends didn’t even attend the school that day and that made me more upset...

A Billion Dollar Smile.

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Smile can change things, even feelings and emotions. For past few days I was busy adjusting myself in a new locality. I used to stay half of my day in school and other half completing the pending work, and if still some time left I did some writing. But during this time I never got time to talk to people, to have a good conversation with them. I regret it. But I regret most that I didn’t talked to my maa for past few weeks. I usually don’t share my things and my life that much with her but I know she knows everything about me. That is the best thing I love about her. Yesterday, I got free with my studies and had nothing else to do; so I went to maa and sat near her. She was calculating something in her diary and I never know what does she writes in her diary. I have tried many times to understand what has written in the diary but never exactly got it. So, I asked her what she was doing? She stopped doing what she was and looked at me and gave me a very beautiful smile,  a...

Feelings.

Hey guys! So this is my second post. Hope you love it!  *********************************** So its a collection of short rhyming sentences that I have written on my own. Its how a girl and a boy start falling for each other and finally how they confess.  The dialoges in italics are by the girl and the ones in bold are by the boy.  ************************************* 'Why do you hurt me So loud and clear I too have feelings Why dont you hear?' 'We are hurt by those For whom we care I guess you like me Loud and clear?' ' Trouble maker That's your middle name. I know that you are no good But you are stuck in my brain.' 'I knew I knew You were falling for me From day one You were counting on me.' 'Of course I see in you Something rather someone. Omg are you aware! Am I that obvious and that clear?' 'Girl, you have an effect on me Too, I dont know how But I am falling for you Too.' 'Goddamn it, shit and...